missing you more than words can say mum. amelia starts nursery tomorrow. so wish you were coming with me to take her. we always spoke about the day that would happen. i know that you will be with us in spirit. i love you so so much, life is a struggle without you. im trying my best to look after dad, hes doing really well bless him. i kep telling myself that you are in a better place and no longer in pain but the selfish part of me just wants you back with us. at the moment i can not see how this is going to get easier, please pass on some of your stength. the day you closed your eyes and went to sleep was the hardest day of my life and it still feels like yesturday. love you so so much. i hope you are looking down on us. xxx