just to let you know i was thinking about you, like i do everyday. miss you loads. just cant accept that i will never see you again. every morning when i wake up i think we have been living a nightmare. miss ringing you everyday. now i pester dad! amelia misses not talking to you on the phone too. life is cruel mum, why did any of this have to happen?? i wish i had seen the signs earlier and then maybe i could have done something about it. feel so crap about it all. you had such a tough life and even untill the very end you struggled. i will never meet anyone so brave ever again. the courage you had on that saturday morning was unbelievable, i just wanted to take all your pain away. i moment you closed your eyes and went to sleep there was relief that you would never have to suffer through life ever again. and its that which gives me the strength to get through every day. you are and always will be my soul mate. such a brave woman, friend and mum. love you lots and lots. miss you more and more everyday mum.xxx