nearly the birthday girl!!! just doesnt seem right, none of it does. we should be having a big party for your big 50! i know u said u didnt want a party but u always loved a party. i will do my best to make it a special day in other ways. love you so much, id do anything to see or speak to you again, even for a second. always in my heart mum and always will be. hope you like your headstone, i know it would have made you so proud. night night sleep tight, make sure the bedbugs dont bite xx